the many diffrent thing's thats going through my mind right now tonight ??????????

so many things in this lifetime have gone by so fast so many thing's have changed ,and yet so many thing's have stayed the same for a long time. so many thing's about me from long ago have sense changed ,and so of them have sense been lost to me ,and i am unsure if i will ever get most of them back. the only thing in my life right now that is starting to come back to me now is that i am starting to learn how to trust people again ,and that's all because of one person who's name i can't mention at this time. this one person has Begin to change my life in so many way's in just a very short time, and before i knew this person i had almost lost all hope ,and Faith in life and in people . I can see now that i can open up ,and feel without pain ,and heartache once again ,but yet am stile unsure of how much i can share with this person ,but one thing that i do know is that when this person Say's that their here when i need them they are telling me the truth ,and that's something that i have looked for my whole life through. I was lost and felt more alone in this world then i have ever felt before,and was ready to give up and die but then this great person came into my life ,and has been nothing but great to me ,and so understanding ,and caring I can now say that i do see a better life for myself in the years to come ,and i truly do hope that i have many many more year's left to spend time with the great person that god has sent down to me from haven above , to watch over me and teach me that people can trust one another once again.


this I wrote because I am not' really sure why its just how i was feeling today so many thing's have changed in my life in just the past week ,and i am just taken my surprise over these things that i had to post how i was feeling .
I can say that i do thank god each ,and every day for sending this person my way for because, of this person my day's are so much more brighter then they where before.

words hiddin within me

the words within me are being hidden within the Temple of my mind . the words are running through my head at wop speed they will not' stop ruining through my mind , on this cold dark ,and gray night. I can only hope that one day the words within me will at sometime want to stop running ,and that one day my heart will want to feel love once again. until then i must run with the word's that i have hidden within me ,and run with my heart as it wants to be forever free from the world around me on this night i just want to stop running ,and slow down with some rest for a while ,but i can't rest for i must keep running just like thees word's that are always racing through my mind.

this day

The day is very stile
The night is very cold,and dark
The time is going by so very slowly today
The thought within my mind are sceraming to be let out
My heart keeps asking me why i am here
My soul crys to be set free once again
My eyes search the midnight sky for the beauty of the stars
My arms reach out for advendtchar far from this place
My soul searches for peace on this earth
My heart longs for the peace within to be desoverd on this night.


ok this one is new i just now finally finshed it the other day ,and desided to post it ,and see what you think about it pleas let me know what you think.

Last Chance to say goodbye

An unknown place
An unforgettable face
A life that is about to change forever never to be the same again
In the blink of an eye time is about to stop
The friend that i have known my whole life is about to be soon lost .
The day is very cold ,and dark
The long dreaded night is falling down upon me
The day that i thought would never come is now here.
A day to let go ,and Drew loved one's near
A time to pray for the strength to pull through this most dreaded day of fear.

this is for my uncle the greatest man that i have ever known the man that i thought could never die has now been dead almost 12 years ,and not' a day goes by that i don't think about him I miss his more everyday.

for you I will

for you I would walk through a bruing ring of fire
for you i would give up everything that i hold most dear,and true
for you i would move haven ,and earth to make you happy once again
for you i would cross the deepist ocean
for you i would Caleb the highist mountain
for you i would I would never question why
for you i would never give up
for you i would fight
for you i would never say goodbye
for you i would never let go
for you i would always hold on tight
for you i would always see the light
for you i would say I'm sorry
for you i would i would stay for ever
for you i would do what ever it takes to get your eternal love
for you there is nothing that could keep me away from you ,and i would never walk away for you are the love of my life ,and all the stars in my sky . for you i would do anything to keep you if I could I would have never let you go for i will always love you. within my heart your memory will forever remain for me alone to have ,and remember.

hidden within a dream

his eye's as blue as the sky
his heart as Prue as the ocean
his soul as beautiful as the earth
his smile as bright as the morning sun
his touch as gentle as the spring breeze
his love of life unbelievable
his voice as clam as the summer wind
his hand so full of love
his whisper as soft as a fleece blanket
his kiss as passionate as a long steamed red roes
his heart is mead of gold
his nose so soft ,and cold in the winter snow
his finger tips are mead of magic
his words are spoken with only truth
his heart bets forever true for me
his lips are mead of chocolate syrup
his his love for me will never fad away
his face to me is stile unseen

this is the description of the man that i am one day meant to find ,and spend the rest of my life with shown to me only in a midnight summer dream long ago. as i contenue to set here i can only hope that one day i will meet this great man ,but untile then i will just keep thinking about the man shown to me within a night's dream.

the one

you are the love of my life
you are the stars in my sky
you are the bet of my heart
you are my angel from above sent down to me with eternal love
you are the one i waited on my whole life through
you are the one that is guiding my through now
you are the one that i call my own
you are the one that with i want to make a home
you are the one that loves me true
you are the one that See's me through when i am blue
you are the one that shows me true love
you are the one that makes me feel beautiful
you are the one that took a chance on me
you are the one that will forever hold the key to my heart
you are the one that to witch i say i love you more then everything
you are the one that I wished for ,and never found i AM lost being here without you .

just to let some know this was not' a poem that was written for someone its just one of My many thoughts that i wrote down here ,and maybe one that someday i would like to have on a greeting card.