words hiddin within me

the words within me are being hidden within the Temple of my mind . the words are running through my head at wop speed they will not' stop ruining through my mind , on this cold dark ,and gray night. I can only hope that one day the words within me will at sometime want to stop running ,and that one day my heart will want to feel love once again. until then i must run with the word's that i have hidden within me ,and run with my heart as it wants to be forever free from the world around me on this night i just want to stop running ,and slow down with some rest for a while ,but i can't rest for i must keep running just like thees word's that are always racing through my mind.

this day

The day is very stile
The night is very cold,and dark
The time is going by so very slowly today
The thought within my mind are sceraming to be let out
My heart keeps asking me why i am here
My soul crys to be set free once again
My eyes search the midnight sky for the beauty of the stars
My arms reach out for advendtchar far from this place
My soul searches for peace on this earth
My heart longs for the peace within to be desoverd on this night.


ok this one is new i just now finally finshed it the other day ,and desided to post it ,and see what you think about it pleas let me know what you think.

Last Chance to say goodbye

An unknown place
An unforgettable face
A life that is about to change forever never to be the same again
In the blink of an eye time is about to stop
The friend that i have known my whole life is about to be soon lost .
The day is very cold ,and dark
The long dreaded night is falling down upon me
The day that i thought would never come is now here.
A day to let go ,and Drew loved one's near
A time to pray for the strength to pull through this most dreaded day of fear.

this is for my uncle the greatest man that i have ever known the man that i thought could never die has now been dead almost 12 years ,and not' a day goes by that i don't think about him I miss his more everyday.

for you I will

for you I would walk through a bruing ring of fire
for you i would give up everything that i hold most dear,and true
for you i would move haven ,and earth to make you happy once again
for you i would cross the deepist ocean
for you i would Caleb the highist mountain
for you i would I would never question why
for you i would never give up
for you i would fight
for you i would never say goodbye
for you i would never let go
for you i would always hold on tight
for you i would always see the light
for you i would say I'm sorry
for you i would i would stay for ever
for you i would do what ever it takes to get your eternal love
for you there is nothing that could keep me away from you ,and i would never walk away for you are the love of my life ,and all the stars in my sky . for you i would do anything to keep you if I could I would have never let you go for i will always love you. within my heart your memory will forever remain for me alone to have ,and remember.

hidden within a dream

his eye's as blue as the sky
his heart as Prue as the ocean
his soul as beautiful as the earth
his smile as bright as the morning sun
his touch as gentle as the spring breeze
his love of life unbelievable
his voice as clam as the summer wind
his hand so full of love
his whisper as soft as a fleece blanket
his kiss as passionate as a long steamed red roes
his heart is mead of gold
his nose so soft ,and cold in the winter snow
his finger tips are mead of magic
his words are spoken with only truth
his heart bets forever true for me
his lips are mead of chocolate syrup
his his love for me will never fad away
his face to me is stile unseen

this is the description of the man that i am one day meant to find ,and spend the rest of my life with shown to me only in a midnight summer dream long ago. as i contenue to set here i can only hope that one day i will meet this great man ,but untile then i will just keep thinking about the man shown to me within a night's dream.

the one

you are the love of my life
you are the stars in my sky
you are the bet of my heart
you are my angel from above sent down to me with eternal love
you are the one i waited on my whole life through
you are the one that is guiding my through now
you are the one that i call my own
you are the one that with i want to make a home
you are the one that loves me true
you are the one that See's me through when i am blue
you are the one that shows me true love
you are the one that makes me feel beautiful
you are the one that took a chance on me
you are the one that will forever hold the key to my heart
you are the one that to witch i say i love you more then everything
you are the one that I wished for ,and never found i AM lost being here without you .

just to let some know this was not' a poem that was written for someone its just one of My many thoughts that i wrote down here ,and maybe one that someday i would like to have on a greeting card.

for my moma

this is my mom she is the one that has always ,and will alway's be here when i need her the most throughout my life time . she gave birth to me she could have chousen to give me up ,when i was born ,but she dident' instade she chouse to rase me ,and give me the best life that she could. my mother is one of the strongist weman that i know because , she rased me on her own ,with only the help of my grandmother ,and even though i know that i was not' the easyist child to brang up she stile never gave up on me . even though i done so many things that I knew she woudl never aprove of she stile call's me her baby girl to this day,and this is just my own little way of saying thank you to her for being such a great mother ,and teacher ,but more then that she is now ,and will always be my one true hero in this wrold because what she did reasing me on her own was not' at all easy for her i know. so thanks moma for alwasy beinng here when i have need'd you the most ,and thank you for never giving up on me even though there was time's that you should have.
I love you mom with all my heart forever ,and alwasy and even if i never say it to you i want you to know that you are my hero ,and you always will be untile the day that i die i will alwasy be your baby girl

love always your baby.

the word's within me .

I want to say how much i feel.
I want to say why i'm here.
I want to say why i walked away.
I want to say why I felt I had to leave you alone.
I want to say how much I love you.
I want to say how much i need you.
I want to ssay how much I tareshed you within my heart, and soul.
I want to say how much i thought about you in my heart.
I want to say how much I miss you ,but I can't .

all the things that i wan't to say ,but can't say out loud ,but only on this paper because i can't find the wrods within my mind , the only way i can say what i mean is by doing what I do ,and thats writeing it all down .

underneath it all

underneth the earth
underneth the sand's of time
underneth the star's of the midnight sky
underneth the light of the full moon
underneth the wind's of the storm 's of time
underneth the ocean of the east cost
underneth the clouds of the beautyfal blue sky above me
underneth the puddle of the great black rose.
the life that i live is one that can not' really be exspland in all that many word's ,but through writing i can try ,and exspress myself better then i could by useing only wrod's from my own mouth thats why i write this everyday . because i am just being me ,and this is my way of saying that i will always be running forever fancy free ,as the free spirit that i am .

just some pic's that are dear to my heart

This is me ,and my first true love my horse.

The first time

The very first time i know i was free
the first time i knew i was loved
the first time i seen pain
the first time i felt lost
the first time i felt found
the first time i felt emty
the first time i felt whole
the first time i was on my own
the first time you stood by me
the first time i ran
the first time i stayed
the first time i died
the first time i cryed
the first time i lied
the first time i was saved
the first time i was forgotten
the first time i remembered
the first time i found trust
the first time i found deseat
the first time i was used
the first time i was appresated
the first time i was hurt
the first time i was brunt
the first time i was cought
the first time i was set free.